New Worship Experience

Last night Chris and I were at church and I experienced something new during worship that distracted me just a bit. My tummy was rocking and rolling! It was amazing and I can't wait for Chris to be able to feel our little guy moving around (we tried again, but no success). It's like he was flailing his hands and legs all around. It was pretty fun and amazing. Owen must really enjoy worship music.

My focus did shift pretty soon and I became overwhelmed with gratefulness for the gift God has given me. It has been a journey getting to where Chris and I are now. There have been many times of sorrow, confusion, and yes, even jealousy, as we struggled with the desires of our hearts that seemed so good and natural. But yet, our prayers seemed to be answered in ways we were not exactly happy with. I can say even before learning of Owen, I've learned to see the past several years as an amazing journey. A time when I have pressed in and talked with God in ways I probably never would have otherwise. I've learned patience. I've learned my life is not going to look the way I think it will and that it's not like everyone else's. I've learned God's sometimes "cryptic" answers to my prayers are great gifts that contain great hope. Most importantly, I've really grasped what Paul meant to be content. This past year I finally felt fully at peace with everything and just filled with joy. Now God has given me greater joy and I am experiencing a tiny little miracle inside of me, worship God with me.